April 30, 2008

What's your biggest weakness?

Interview tomorrow and I have no idea how to answer that question.

hmmm, your honor I guess my biggest weakness is that i leave dirty clothes all over my room or sometimes i have low self esteem or I'm an axe murderer...but don't worry my therapist and I have that under control.

Or I could go with the advice of career services and say something negative that really is a positive...well sometimes I get too consumed in my work and forget I have a life outside of the office or I find myself taking way too much of my work home to finish. Like a judge won't see right through that.

We'll see what I come up with.

Learning to Share...or not to

So this may be somewhat disturbing to some (or most) but I go the the bathroom with the door open. I don't mean at work or at a restaurant, but when I'm at home in my own apartment. I have spent most of my life after age 18 living alone with the exception of the occasional roommate and/or cat and the need to take that little bit of extra effort to close the door seemed like a waste. But now with moving in with my fiance on the horizon I'm concerned.

He knows of this odd habit that I have developed and it has become somewhat of a joke between us. I will purposely accentuate the fact that I am leaving the door open and tease as to whether he can handle my socially inappropriate behaviors, but once I move in must I stop? Is the humor in my oddness going to fade into annoyance or even disgust? I like leaving the door open because its my own silent protest to social expectations, but up until now I was the only person effected by the strike on conformism. Now, I think I will have to give this up as a courtesy to my new cohabitant and find otherways to conduct my personal dissent.

I know its strange...can't I just leave the door open a crack? I'll ask, maybe he won't mind...

April 28, 2008

Hopefully this won't be us

http://kdka.com/local/wedding.brawl.Ross.2.709799.html

The end before a new beginning

I have one final left...non-profit organizations taxation. So tantalizing I know that is why I am doing this instead of studying.

I had a minor freak out several nights ago about whether I really want to be a lawyer or not. But I had the realization today that I do and I'm going forward on the right path.

A work colleague came into my office after interviewing a possible intern to take my position once I start studying for the bar and she asked, after speaking to to the candidate, how could she be in her second year of law school and not know what she wants to do.
A little voice in my head said "hey you are graduating from law school and you still don't know what you want to do." My colleague then commented that your gut always really knows what you are supposed to do and then I realized I actually disagreed with that little voice.

My gut has always told me what to do and other people surrounding me always decided to add their personal views as to how I should move forward in my career. I started out wanting to be in criminal law and I have always ended up going back to that initial instinct.
I may not be the millionaire lawyer that works 100 hour weeks, but that's ok. I'll go to work in a field of law that interests and excites me and be able to go home and eat dinner with my family and friends and actually have the kind of life that I want for myself.

It's like the Wizard of Oz, if i'm looking for who I should be it's already inside of me

Tin Woodsman: What have you learned, Dorothy?
Dorothy: ...it's that - if I ever go looking for my heart's desire again, I won't look any further than my own back yard. Because if it isn't there, I never really lost it to begin with! Is that right?